We are all embers from the same fire
I was terrified. Then I realised how little it mattered, how insignificant I was... how whatever was written on that piece of paper was totally irrelevant, it wouldn't, couldn't define me, it wouldn't change me, whatever mistakes I might have made meant nothing.
When you're scared it's usually because of that niggling, unknown element that twists and tumbles in your head, expanding into something much worse than it actually is. What we don't realise, when we're scared, when it feels like your heart's beating out of your ears, is that it's not the end of the world. Eventually I will be nothing but dust, an echo of what was, and hopefully not of what could have been. But for now, I feel this, a heart beating inside of me, sometimes it's the only thing that reassures me I'm actually alive... sometimes fear is the only thing that reminds my heart to remind me.
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. . . I don't own this photo but it takes my breath away it's that amazing.
Ok, surpassing all the melodrama I just wanted to say thank you to everyone who wished me luck in the previous post! I didn't fail my AS levels, so I guess I'm not joining the circus (damn, I really wanted to grow a beard... ahaha) in fact I got ABBC - I'm still reeling with shock of it all, especially the 'A which I got for art! :O I have no idea how I managed to scrape an A, but I guess miracles do happen, tehe.
Hope everyone else's results went well!
x x x
Posted by Spencer. at 18:47